Hi :) ! My name is Ami, i am 32 and I feel quite lost.

The title of this blog speaks for itself. To be honest, my first purpose when creating this blog(which was initially named oneway) was to help people crippled with anxiety, feeling lost in life, not knowing where to go, as I thought that I had overcame those feelings and wanted to show others how to do so. Then I realized a few times after starting the blog , that I was still lost. Which kinda made me feel like a fraud. “How can you preach when you yourself haven’t reached?” I know it works for a lot or people but the saying “Fake it til you make it” was never something that I could really implement.

So in an attempt to find myself, I have decided to stop distracting myself, to stop numbing myself so not to feel the pain of the wish unfulfilling, the pain of the potential unreleased, the weight of the dreams that have been stacked one on top of the other for the past few years.

The things we choose to distract ourselves with are different from person to person. For me it is mostly social media (especially YouTube and instagram) and tv shows (I am a sucker for K-dramas). Whenever I feel down, stuck , stressed, bored, those are the things that I turn to, to stop the noise inside. But the problem with that behavior, is that instead of dealing with the emotions, it will shovel them deeply, feed them until they are big enough to come back even stronger. And a vicious circle has just begun.

So for the next 365 days, I will be posting here, documenting everyday. People might not even come across my blog, but writing my journey here knowing that it could reach some people feels like i am making a promise to the world, not just to myself.